I’m paving my way through words drawn in wet concrete
I could write this once and read it forever
Or I could write it twice if we could scream it together
I’ve forgotten my fears of roller coasters
I’m not so concerned
Just take me up again
Another not-so-good reason
To take the selfish way out
I’m gutting a fish like a kid
Who caught his own mouth
It’s not so romantic when the same song plays everyday
We’re getting too close too close to an emotionless life
It’s not so romantic when the same song plays everyday
I’ve gotten too close too close for it to stay the same
I’m repaying myself for every page that I’ve ripped out
My best ideas are footnotes
And my worst ones always bloom
How fast would it kill you to swim upstream?
Would it kill me to just breathe?
I saw two letters
In a heart in the concrete
A permanently figurative way
To self-mutilate
Not to be overdramatic but I heard this one yesterday
I hope the rest of our lives don’t move as slow as this
Traumatic search for “How to tie a tie?”
My indiscretions are writing my elegy
Would it kill you to change routine?
Would you live vehemently?
And would it kill you to tell me?
Cuz it would kill me to let it bleed
i think i really like this song! i actually have the beginning lyrics of this one posted previously from when i wrote them, nothing really changed much with those, ive just added to it. i kinda wanna rework the main riff in this one, still figuring it out though, but for now its fine. this ones about a lot of things, but its mostly about dying i guess! ill be talking a little more about these 3 songs on my blog.
Give me the thorns without the rose
And watch as I decompose
Into lethal limits apathy
You’re trying to save me but I’ve got the key
Got my hands in my pockets I’m trying to hide
I can speak so calmly but my cries are implied
I’ve never felt safer
And I feel so alone
Look me in the eyes and say it again
If I were you I’d take a knife to all these dead ends
Clench your fists so much tighter than you intend
Holding lockets like interlopers waiting to rend
Pour the coffee in my eyes
The stingy sugar softens before it liquifies
Taking steps back
To meet where we intended
I won’t get lost along the way
On a terminal fast
Of days left open ended
You’ll never feel at home
If you’ve never felt alone
here it is!! interloper 1!! im still working on part 2!! as i was recording this song i had a lot of ideas for new things in the guitar parts, but i didnt want to redo it all, so whenever the next rendition (and probably final) one comes out ill make those changes then! i like this song but i think it can be a lot better, so id still like to work on it, hopefully with other people lol.
Colder currents wash me away
To where warmer weather is more of the same
I’m folding all my cards into paper mache
Save the vacuous thoughts for different days
So you drive
I'll be the navigator
Shut your eyes
You'll see where we get to later
Take your converse off
And jump into the creek
Can you feel the rocks cut your feet?
Can you hear the nonsense when you're splashing me?
If you do it too much does it get hard to breathe?
And if it does
When will I let this all go?
I filled my pockets with rocks
So that I don’t have to float
I hear your favorite song playing on the car’s stereo
“I’m looking through you, where did you go?”
Come on and drag me on
We’ll drift away til dawn
I’m gone mentally
But still here physically
All wrapped up in gauze
It’s like I'm kissing a saw
Anhedonia arrives and
Drags me on and on
this song has been exhausting to write, and this is the final redintion of it. ive rewritten this music and lyrics countless times, its so crazy. im glad i didnt give up. i recorded another demo version of this one last month, but i was really unhappy with it, i rerecorded it and changed a few things. i really like this one. and i love the lyrics!! beatles reference! this is one of my favorite songs ive done!
one thing im hoping for with this is to post it online and find some new band members, so hopefully that works out! i have 2 more coming up after this one! it feels good to record a demo song!
Seeing you in your thrifted shoes and dress
I always felt like I'm a mess
And when you speak to me it feels like fire
Seeing you in your thrifted shoes and dress
I always felt like I'm a mess
And when you speak to me it's like I'm stuck in barbed wire
I thought I felt love at eighteen
But I don't feel it anymore
How could I? Feelings scattered on the floor
You could have me if you wanted
I don't want this anymore
Feelings barged in now I'm shoving them out the door
Are you the person I adore?
Don't know if these feelings are for sure?
Will this song make your face turn red?
Will you make me repeat what I just said?
Seeing you in your thrifted dress and shoes
I never know what I should do
this is a song i wrote over a year ago! this is a finished recordind (probably). its really strange having someone else sing a song i wrote. i wasnt sure if i liked it at first but i really respect dylan as a musician, and i did write it for this band. we recorded it last april in my parents living room. i mixed and mastered it and am really happy with how it turned out.
i really like the lines "will this song make your face turn red? will you make me repeat what i just said?"
Get out of my dreams and come visit me
I'm bereft with despair
This theft isnt fair
A prelude that ended before it began
I can't say your name
Or else I'll be sad
And I'm picking up the pieces of myself that all fell
And I'm printing out old pictures to put up on my shelves
To the end of the world I'll say it
I don't have enough to remenisce
If you can hear me please answer my calls
And please come back to us all
this is a tough song to write. ive been working on it, and a few about the same topic for a while. i still dont think this is done yet. but this recording i made is good enough for me to listen to so i can come up with some more ideas for it. i think it def needs to be a little more riffy, yeah? what do you think???
this song is about Amelia who was Mina's sister and one of my closest friends. in june of 2023 she died in a car crash after getting hit by a drunk driver. i miss her so much.
I'm tugging at these loose ends
I'm losing my grip again
Show me how to hold my breath again
I think I'm gonna untwist
I can't stand much more of this
Not getting over anything I used to miss
I've got a new pair of jorts
Revved up an ready to go
Again I'm rolling over rocks
I can't hit the brakes to stop this mess I'm making
And I'm making it worse
Pretend I'm changing all my locks
I've got no keys no clean socks
And I'm even getting sick of these songs
Driving down to the 7 Eleven
Fueling my caffeine obsession
Drinking it down to no objection
I got my headphones turned up
Alkaline trio, Superchunk
Goddamnit and Come Pick Me Up
I think I'm getting off course
Not gonna take it so slow
Again I'm rolling over rocks
I can't hit the brakes to stop this mess I'm making
And I'm making it worse
Remember driving to get lost
It was so fun but now I'm older thinking about opportunity cost
Again I'm rolling over rocks
I'm getting so stressed my heads infested
Energy drinks undigested
For real I've gotta change these locks
I'll buy some new keys some new socks and I'm never going to stop
yeah heres an eat my jorts song!!! i actually didnt like this one much at first but i think ive grown to really like it!! its just a fun silly song and i really put a lot of myself into it. honestly i think the line "energy drinks undigested" is one of the best things ive come up with LOL. this one is really straight forward and wont change much (or at all) once we add the drums, bass, and electric guitars. i dont often write songs for eat my jorts but i think its a good writing exercise for me to really be less serious with my music, because sometimes i get so pressured to write the best song, with the most interesting lyrics, with the sickest music, but when it comes down to it, i really can do that!!! a lot of the time i feel im not good enough and it gets me down a lot and i feel like giving up so much with music but i know i can do these things. i know i can be a good songwriter.
anyways im sorry this is a longer post. i wanted to rant about this band because it really does frustrate me most of the time when i think about actually doing it, but i think ill leave that for a blog post sometime later.
I am paving my way through words drawn in wet concrete
I can write this once and read it forever
I could write it twice if we could scream it together
I’ve forgotten my fear of rollercoasters
I'm not so concerned
Just take me up again
Another not-so-good reason
To take the selfish way out
Im gutting a fish like a kid
Who caught his own mouth
It's not so romantic
When the same song plays every day
I'm getting too close too close to an emotionless life
I've gotten too close too close for it to stay the same
sorry kelly for ruining your beautiful song with my awful voice!!!!
just did this cover for fun! i wrote an eat my jorts song that ill probably post later!
I didn't think I'd have this for anything less than forever
As soon as I started listening things stopped getting better
And I thought that I'd remember or thought it was a nightmare
But I stopped hearing strings in songs when they're not there
Sing the song you wrote for me about the Times Square weather
I thought it was uninspiring but your imagery is getting better
And please remind me that next time week convene
If you quit your fucking band you'll be dead by next week
I think it's all too much to talk out over lunch
When I see you again will I remember that
I was 17 once
Lovesick at first sight of drawing blood
And watching fires burn for fun
Swaying with my eyes shut
But waiting to cut the cord
If I died in Champaign that'd be fucked
And I think it's also fucked to think it over way too much
I remember when things mattered less and I didn't care when
I was 17 once
Bruised as beautifully as the blue sky
And as ordinary as it too
Minimized and cleaned up
I'm losing weight I didn't gain
Naivety is decaying right now
I was 17 once
I died when I was young
And forever I'll be fucking stuck
i literally havent written a good ska song in over a year. so it feels good to get this one out. i think the lyrics are still a work in progress, but this and the music are nearly done!! i might try to record a demo soon?? this song is about a lot of things but kinda centers in on one or two feelings as a bigger picture. i dropped a lot more f-bombs than i usually do when writing. i dont use swears in songs much, sometimes it feels kinda like a cheat-code. you can literally use the word fuck whenever you want in a song and it will make sense LOL. this song more lighthearted or maybe more fun than other ones, so i think using the word fuck 4 times is okay.
Weren't you seventeen once?
Don't you remember painting the colors of the sky?
My canvas melts from stars that burn too bright
Now it's too hot for me
Are you sure that you're letting go?
Cause I'm squeezing so tight
I couldn't feel safer
And I couldn't feel more alone
i needed to post this "chorus" cause i think about it so much. i love it. this is near the end of the song, and its going to be the last song on this album. i feel so great when i can write something i love. i wrote this months ago, and i still have yet to finish all the lyrics for this song. once i finish ill post an acoustic demo maybe!
Remind me I'm alive
Drain the dread out of my eyes
Hold my arms and break them before I take my life
In this tide I will capsize
Will this show be worth the drive?
What would we do otherwise?
I've stayed at home with Ponyoak at least ten-thousand times
What's left to leave behind?
i just wanted to share this song. a fun thing about this site is that i can share sneak peaks of the music im working on!! i think i started working on this song back in august. my original idea was to have this be an acoustic song, but i kept improving it and it worked too well as a punk song to let it stay acoustic. i recorded this demo last month, im not really happy with the vocals, but its whatever. good enough for a demo. imagine this is the first song on an album, its kinda like the introduction. at least it will be anyways. its a pretty short and simple song but i like the lyrics and i feel like it wraps up a lot of big feelings i have into 2 little stanzas.
i recorded this at home by myself and played all the instruments on here.
i think that being able to post demos like this here will motivate me more to keep working. sometimes i get so stuck with this stuff.