Seeing you in your thrifted shoes and dress
I always felt like I'm a mess
And when you speak to me it feels like fire
Seeing you in your thrifted shoes and dress
I always felt like I'm a mess
And when you speak to me it's like I'm stuck in barbed wire
I thought I felt love at eighteen
But I don't feel it anymore
How could I? Feelings scattered on the floor
You could have me if you wanted
I don't want this anymore
Feelings barged in now I'm shoving them out the door
Are you the person I adore?
Don't know if these feelings are for sure?
Will this song make your face turn red?
Will you make me repeat what I just said?
Seeing you in your thrifted dress and shoes
I never know what I should do
this is a song i wrote over a year ago! this is a finished recordind (probably). its really strange having someone else sing a song i wrote. i wasnt sure if i liked it at first but i really respect dylan as a musician, and i did write it for this band. we recorded it last april in my parents living room. i mixed and mastered it and am really happy with how it turned out.
i really like the lines "will this song make your face turn red? will you make me repeat what i just said?"
Get out of my dreams and come visit me
I'm bereft with despair
This theft isnt fair
A prelude that ended before it began
I can't say your name
Or else I'll be sad
And I'm picking up the pieces of myself that all fell
And I'm printing out old pictures to put up on my shelves
To the end of the world I'll say it
I don't have enough to remenisce
If you can hear me please answer my calls
And please come back to us all
this is a tough song to write. ive been working on it, and a few about the same topic for a while. i still dont think this is done yet. but this recording i made is good enough for me to listen to so i can come up with some more ideas for it. i think it def needs to be a little more riffy, yeah? what do you think???
this song is about Amelia who was Mina's sister and one of my closest friends. in june of 2023 she died in a car crash after getting hit by a drunk driver. i miss her so much.
I'm tugging at these loose ends
I'm losing my grip again
Show me how to hold my breath again
I think I'm gonna untwist
I can't stand much more of this
Not getting over anything I used to miss
I've got a new pair of jorts
Revved up an ready to go
Again I'm rolling over rocks
I can't hit the brakes to stop this mess I'm making
And I'm making it worse
Pretend I'm changing all my locks
I've got no keys no clean socks
And I'm even getting sick of these songs
Driving down to the 7 Eleven
Fueling my caffeine obsession
Drinking it down to no objection
I got my headphones turned up
Alkaline trio, Superchunk
Goddamnit and Come Pick Me Up
I think I'm getting off course
Not gonna take it so slow
Again I'm rolling over rocks
I can't hit the brakes to stop this mess I'm making
And I'm making it worse
Remember driving to get lost
It was so fun but now I'm older thinking about opportunity cost
Again I'm rolling over rocks
I'm getting so stressed my heads infested
Energy drinks undigested
For real I've gotta change these locks
I'll buy some new keys some new socks and I'm never going to stop
yeah heres an eat my jorts song!!! i actually didnt like this one much at first but i think ive grown to really like it!! its just a fun silly song and i really put a lot of myself into it. honestly i think the line "energy drinks undigested" is one of the best things ive come up with LOL. this one is really straight forward and wont change much (or at all) once we add the drums, bass, and electric guitars. i dont often write songs for eat my jorts but i think its a good writing exercise for me to really be less serious with my music, because sometimes i get so pressured to write the best song, with the most interesting lyrics, with the sickest music, but when it comes down to it, i really can do that!!! a lot of the time i feel im not good enough and it gets me down a lot and i feel like giving up so much with music but i know i can do these things. i know i can be a good songwriter.
anyways im sorry this is a longer post. i wanted to rant about this band because it really does frustrate me most of the time when i think about actually doing it, but i think ill leave that for a blog post sometime later.
I am paving my way through words drawn in wet concrete
I can write this once and read it forever
I could write it twice if we could scream it together
I’ve forgotten my fear of rollercoasters
I'm not so concerned
Just take me up again
Another not-so-good reason
To take the selfish way out
Im gutting a fish like a kid
Who caught his own mouth
It's not so romantic
When the same song plays every day
I'm getting too close too close to an emotionless life
I've gotten too close too close for it to stay the same
sorry kelly for ruining your beautiful song with my awful voice!!!!
just did this cover for fun! i wrote an eat my jorts song that ill probably post later!
I didn't think I'd have this for anything less than forever
As soon as I started listening things stopped getting better
And I thought that I'd remember or thought it was a nightmare
But I stopped hearing strings in songs when they're not there
Sing the song you wrote for me about the Times Square weather
I thought it was uninspiring but your imagery is getting better
And please remind me that next time week convene
If you quit your fucking band you'll be dead by next week
I think it's all too much to talk out over lunch
When I see you again will I remember that
I was 17 once
Lovesick at first sight of drawing blood
And watching fires burn for fun
Swaying with my eyes shut
But waiting to cut the cord
If I died in Champaign that'd be fucked
And I think it's also fucked to think it over way too much
I remember when things mattered less and I didn't care when
I was 17 once
Bruised as beautifully as the blue sky
And as ordinary as it too
Minimized and cleaned up
I'm losing weight I didn't gain
Naivety is decaying right now
I was 17 once
I died when I was young
And forever I'll be fucking stuck
i literally havent written a good ska song in over a year. so it feels good to get this one out. i think the lyrics are still a work in progress, but this and the music are nearly done!! i might try to record a demo soon?? this song is about a lot of things but kinda centers in on one or two feelings as a bigger picture. i dropped a lot more f-bombs than i usually do when writing. i dont use swears in songs much, sometimes it feels kinda like a cheat-code. you can literally use the word fuck whenever you want in a song and it will make sense LOL. this song more lighthearted or maybe more fun than other ones, so i think using the word fuck 4 times is okay.
Weren't you seventeen once?
Don't you remember painting the colors of the sky?
My canvas melts from stars that burn too bright
Now it's too hot for me
Are you sure that you're letting go?
Cause I'm squeezing so tight
I couldn't feel safer
And I couldn't feel more alone
i needed to post this "chorus" cause i think about it so much. i love it. this is near the end of the song, and its going to be the last song on this album. i feel so great when i can write something i love. i wrote this months ago, and i still have yet to finish all the lyrics for this song. once i finish ill post an acoustic demo maybe!
Remind me I'm alive
Drain the dread out of my eyes
Hold my arms and break them before I take my life
In this tide I will capsize
Will this show be worth the drive?
What would we do otherwise?
I've stayed at home with Ponyoak at least ten-thousand times
What's left to leave behind?
i just wanted to share this song. a fun thing about this site is that i can share sneak peaks of the music im working on!! i think i started working on this song back in august. my original idea was to have this be an acoustic song, but i kept improving it and it worked too well as a punk song to let it stay acoustic. i recorded this demo last month, im not really happy with the vocals, but its whatever. good enough for a demo. imagine this is the first song on an album, its kinda like the introduction. at least it will be anyways. its a pretty short and simple song but i like the lyrics and i feel like it wraps up a lot of big feelings i have into 2 little stanzas.
i recorded this at home by myself and played all the instruments on here.
i think that being able to post demos like this here will motivate me more to keep working. sometimes i get so stuck with this stuff.