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post-weekend post - 12/16/2024

im waaay too busy!! but i think thats good? right? or if i wasnt busy i think id just be sad.
i have a lot going on lately, i think i always do, but ill just write about a few things. on saturday i worked and then i went with my friend rose to the ghost arcade!! which ive been dying to go to for so long! it was a lot of fun and i wanna play more bubble bobble lol. on sunday i also worked and then went to have band practice with my friends' ska band the land before tim. im filling in on drums for them for a show next weekend, and that was our only full band practice well get. im a little nervous but it should be finee. i am also playing an eat my jorts show tomorrow. im slightly excited for it, but i think it will be just alright. im not sure.
a new sour note symphony album came out and it was really good! ill be doing a favorite albums of the year list soon! ive been getting back into playing the long dark and its a lot of fun. i wrote a song the other day which im pretty happy with too. i added the lyrics in the writing page. i wish i could sing better i just dont know what to doo??
i have more to say but i need to get ready for work soon though. so i will see ya later


music and vasectomy review - 12/11/2024

so 2 weeks ago today i got my vasectomy. i just thought id write about it a little bit. i had been thinking about getting it done for a few years, and lucky it was 100% covered by insurance. i was in and out of the place in about 45 minutes, the procedure only took about 25 minutes. it was pretty chill. i was not in any pain, except for when they applied the anesthetic, which felt exactly like getting a rubber band snapped on your balls. which was strangeee. but they did that twice on each side. then they started the procedure which was very quick! they prescribed me antibiotics as well. i relaxed most of the day and wasnt uncomfortable. i had to wear a jock strap to support my balls so they werent just hanging out. that was the annoying part loll. overall there was a small soreness, but nothing major. i had to wait a week to cum, but when i finally did everything was still cool and working. and today about feel as normal as ever. so overall it was really easy and the recovery was quick!! and im not going to have kids!!! hella

okay lets talk about some music!! this last weekend i went to this improvised music fest in chicago. i went friday and saturday. it was sooooo fricken sick!! i loved every bit of every performance. although my favorite group was the group that closed the saturday night show. they had a drumset player, a percussion(almost drumset like setup) player, and a man who was playing the record player. yeah he was playing it!! he had records of solo jazz instrumentalists, and he had those plugged into effects pedals and was manipulating them in live time. it was insanely cool!! that group was intriguing the whole time! i was sooo mesmerized. afterwards i got to talk to the guy who was doing the record player stuff and he was extremely nice and answered a lot of questions i had. he even gave me some advice on other events to go to to meet other musicians who want to play improvised music. he said he will be on the look out for me in the future too. maybe hell want to play with me one day! i got to talk to the drumset player too, i talked to her last year when i saw her play. shes really talented too! shes probably around my age but hopefully i can pick her brain more sometime too. for a while i was getting together with my friend to play free jazz. he played electric guitar and did a lot of effects stuff while i played drums. i had a lot a lot a lot of fun doing that, and i wish we could again. but he said he was getting too busy and didnt want to put the time into that anymore which was pretty sad. but its okayy.

this week i should have some more free time than usual. i need to get to work on mixes for constant headache and eat my jorts. as well as working more on writing my own songs! maybe get this website looking a little nicer too!


self care day today - 12/6/2024

today i dont work, and i got through most of my emails i needed to send yesterday after my lesson and before i went to the bats show. it was a cool show, i love bats, i just dont really like going to shows at bars lol. this morning i bleached the roots of hair and right now i have my green hair dye in! im happy to be doing it again! i def needed a touch up.
the rest of the day im gonna practice piano, im learning a chopin prelude. play some undernight in birth, maybe some tetris. i feel motivated to write some new lyrics so going to do that! and tonight im going to that free jazz show. none of my friends want to go so im going alone (as usual). i dont mind going to shows alone, but its usually more fun if i take a friend. maybe ill paint my nails too? im listening to superchunk.


AAAAAAAA - 12/5/2024

ive been so fricken busy lately, yesterday was the first day in a while that i had nothing planned so it was good to have some time to myself. im going to too many shows this weekend. tonight im seeing my friend jess' band called bats from nashville. and on friday and saturday im going to the catalytic sound festival, which is a free jazz fest. (not free as in money, but free as in form) i went to it one day last year and it blew me away!! i still want to get an insane and chaotic jazz combo together, its just hard to find the right people as always. on sunday i have practice with a band im filling in on drums for a show for. that show is in 2 weeks, and we also have a jorts show that same week. and ontop of all that i have work!!aaaaaa which is also sooo much work and ive been getting easily overwhelmed with it lately. but i take teaching so seriously so its hard not to stress about it. all i want to do is teach and inspire!! and im usually good at it, but i need to keep being good at it and i worry about that sometimes. i always second guess myself with my job, its hard not to do. i dont know. im still getting used to teaching independently. so hopefully i get better at it.

still working on updating this site. i added the page where im gonna put in progress lyrics and songs/demos. i added on there the other day. also the year is coming to a close. ill have a write up of my favorite albums from this year. (which unfortunately might be kinda short?? idk i had a hard time finding new releases this year and im kinda bummed about it) anyways i gotta go.


First Blog Post - 11/30/24

im getting some work in updating this website. i think ill just write a little bit about one of my obsessions.

kleenex girl wonder

so this website is named after the KGW song "Reunited Airlines" i honestly am so bad with thinking of names but i love that song so it just kinda stuck.
kleenex girl wonder (graham smith) is one of my favorite music artists. hes got an intensive discography with so so many great songs. eventually i will do a ranking/review of all the albums on here. but if you havent heard of kgw, start with the album Ponyoak. i found this cd of this album a week or 2 ago at a record store that i went to after an awful date lol. i already own the record for that album but it was insane to see that cd in the wild so i had to buy it!

i think the thing about kgw that draws me in is mainly the insane lyrics. this dude is a literal genius when it comes to writing words to songs. i dont understand how he comes up with so many crazy idea, or how the songs are paragraphs and paragraphs long, but still flows together as a complete idea. this has impacted my writing style a lot (for the worse probably) because a lot of times i get too caught up into trying to emulate this writing style. it doesnt help that bad religion is one of my other favorite bands, who also use an incredibly dense lexicon in their lyric writing. its tough to try to reach the insanely high heights of my favorite song writers when im working on my music. ill get there someday. so far im very proud of all the songs/lyrics ive written. the ones i am working on now are getting even better i think!

i can go on and on about lyrics and writing. its my favorite part of the songs i like. ill end it here for now. i need a break from all this html stuff. more updates to come on this site though! i love kgw. i hope i can meet him one day and see him play my favorite songs!